Gah!

Well Blaubeuren is over! Huzzah! And I definitely partied too much last night. Beer plus whiskey plus vodka definitely does not mix. I was incredibly sick this morning: wake up, puke, pass out, repeat. It was not fun, I've never had such a bad hangover (der Kater) in my life. And so I therefore resolve not to drink any more hard liquor while in Germany.
Something almost happened with the "older gent", but he ran away before anything significant happened. I was pretty upset last night about it but I was very intoxicated and I guess he was being a gentleman. I was all panicked that he thought I was disgusting or ugly. I don't know why I like him, I guess it's the same reason I like Johnny Depp and Hugh Jackman and Dr House, older men are sexy to me.

Gah! I'm also having a hard time deciding whether to take the extra class or not. It's with another teacher and meets 2 times a week in the evenings and is homework/reading/writing intensive. So far I've happily skated on by with whatever reserves of German that have been lingering in the back of my brain. I haven't really studied, the last big test I drank>studied and got 100 percent. The coordinator basically said you take this class or you have a life. I will only get 3 credits for it at NAU so I don't know if it would be worth the stress. I initially said I wasn't interested but afterward my teacher came up to me and asked me why I didn't raise my hand to say I wanted to. I told her I would wait to see what my midterm grade was and would think about it. I should, but I don't want to. I like being lazy. But then it will be difficult to go back to NAU this fall without having made myself really do anything at all.

Well tomorrow I am going to Munich to see the sights and relax. The "older gent" has not been on skype at all today and so I guess he is avoiding me. Alas, I will see him sooner or later in class on Tuesday hopefully it's not all awkward. I would hate for that to happen because I got drunk and silly, we're friends now and hopefully that won't be destroyed. Ugh FML.

a brief note

Gah! I will be going to Blaubeuren tomorrow for a school excursion/retreat and the midterm exam on Thurs. We will only be allowed to speak German all weekend and there is a great chance that I will not have access to a computer. But I am excited, it is supposed to be really beautiful there. I will take pictures.

Strasbourg was really cool. Lindsay's friend Patrick showed us around and was very very nice and bought us dinner and lunch and was overall very sweet. We would have been completely hopeless without him because we didn't speak French and no one spoke German there. Apparently France doesn't like Germany at all. Well it is Midnight and I should be packing for the trip tomorrow.

Blah

It has been far too long since I have had the patience to write anything here. Time is quickly going by, it is difficult to believe that I've already been here for more than 6 weeks. And I am way too ADD right now to actually finish this now, I am off to the bar across the bridge for drinks and a study party ( I know it doesn't make sense) oh well.

Bier, drama and Baden-Baden

Bleh, this is the second day in a row that I've visted s'Alex (a bar/restaurant) with the older guys to drink(two half liters) of beer and study. I'm kind of worried about my blase attitude to spending money on beer, but I guess it was kind of my dinner sustenance for tonight. Hopefully I remembered not to connect this blog to my facebook in anyway, hmm, it is connected to my email but hopefully no one involved will see this or think to look for a blogger blog. I am paranoid as usual. Well, during the first couple weeks of the German adventure, I kind of latched on to this one guy because I thought we were similar and it was nice to have someone to talk to because everyone from Oregon knew everyone else. So, after a city bar tour he offered to walk me home because I was drunk and tired. When we got back to the dormitories he wanted to talk more so I went to his room and we talked and then he kissed me. Which led to a very long period of awkwardness and eventually he became clingy and even text messaged me at least 6 or 8 times when I was away, when he knew that it cost me money and annoyed me. Well this eventually led up to his drunken skype message of "I want to have sex with you, I have since I met you" which is totally tactless and really annoying since I had made it clear I was not interested in anything with him. The next day he apologized and then immediately asked me to be his girlfriend. I said no, and that I told him that I had previously clearly indicated this fact. And he was so rude and kept saying things like, "I'm disappointed, If you would have been okay with it.. I would have dated you" like it is such a great thing to date him and he also was like "stop defending yourself", and how I "will never even be slightly happy until I get over my fears, and how I'm so tightly wound and immature" Gah! that was several weeks ago, right before a huge test and I told the girls about it and they stopped talking to him after that and now it has precipitated into all this drama and he's being stupid and showing up to class late and being an asshole to everyone. It has been such a problem, everyone is pretty fed up with him. And he showed up to the bar randomly shortly after we had all been talking and blowing steam about the whole mess. Thankfully he left, but it was pretty cowardly of him.

Gah! I have been trying to convince myself the medicine that I am taking is making my hormones and emotions go crazy, but I have always kind of been this way. Even though I have always been attractive to older men, it has only started to get really crazy since I got to Germany. When I visited with my Germany family (Ernst and Ingrid) I noticed that their son-in-law was very attractive(he is good looking(like many Germans here)and during the holiday his son was sick and he was really protective and took care of his son and comforted him and it was so sexy that he was such a good dad) eventually I want to find a husband like that. And now I am starting to like one of the guys and I don't know if I'm being transparent (I certainly thought I was at the fruhlingsfest when I was drunk and dancing(and he was trying to steal my beer and I kept slapping his face(he at some point was also very drunk and randomly bit my hand))) But he is quite a bit older, even though he doesn't act it. I don't know why I like him (stupid hormones) and I don't even see any possibility of much of anything working out between us, but he's really nice and fun.

But! Tomorrow the girlies and I are going to Baden-Baden, a ritzy German town that has really nice hot springs and is supposedly really beautiful. So, I will probably spend too much money but after all the stress I really need a good relaxing weekend.

Ciao!

El Chico

Well, I have been craving Mexican food like crazy and Tuebingen happens to have one overpriced "Mexican" food place called El Chico. Well I had been talking to two guys, Matt and Josh and they were also craving Mexican food so we decided to go check it out and maybe split 2 entrees between the 3 of us. The place seemed nice enough and it was happy hour so I ordered a strawberry margarita which was pretty good. We then decided to get some Nachos, a chicken fajihta and an enchilada plate. The nachos were ok, they weren't anything like what I would expect nachos to be. Mostly it was a pile of chips with a huge amount of sour cream on top with two slices of tomato and two slices of cucumber in the sour cream. It came with salsa on the side which had the consistency of ketchup. The fajitas were good, but I don't know how one could really mess up onions, and peppers and meat sauteed in oil. The Enchiladas were also not very good. Disappointed, but not totally surprised we decided that we three should open a new Mexican food restaurant with authentic fresh salsa and good entrees somewhere in Germany to make our fortunes. The End.